For The Masses:
Reblog to save a life.
Wow that is certainly a question. I do have anxiety occasionally and that’s always awful and scary. Now…onto how being bipolar feels..well that can depend heavily on the individual and what they’re struggling with and this might now be true for everyone or even completely right but this is my understanding of things anyway.
For me it’s highs and lows, though I call my lows ‘downs’ but um, so your highs are like you’re soo happy and ready to take on anything like people or chores or that one thing you’ve been procrastinating on for days, life is great, you’re boisterous and cheery, eating a lot and getting crap done and it’s niice, so nice you tend to stay up waaay longer then usual because you just don’t feel like sleeping when life is so great and you’re being so productive. This can last a couple days or even less and that’s the period in time when you’re using up your reserves of serotonin because to my understanding that’s what being bipolar is, that your brain moderates serotonin improperly so you end up using too much and running out.
And that’s when you crash, typically for me downs lasts longer then an ups and it’s awful. You’re hopelessly sad and depressed; sometimes for no good reason and that’s absolutely frustrating because..you know it’s your body and brain and there’s nothing you can do about it, that you can’t be reasonable and take this into your own hands and feel how you’d like to feel or what the situation calls for. I’m with my girlfriend now for the first time in nearly two years and yet I’m still having downs and it fucking sucks. I’m listless, without energy and motivation and feel so empty inside, it’s not fun by any means and it fucks up my life. Just waiting and holding out for when I feel better again and then dreading the inevitable fall that I know is right around the corner when I do feel better.
A lot of people compare it to a rollercoater for the ups and downs and that’s not wrong necessarily. It’s just really tiring and awful, and seriously gets in the way of things and plans and everything. And it’s hard to find understanding from others and most just tell you to pick yourself up by the bootstraps and get things done like it’s your average laziness and that’s so much bullshit, it’s not that easy, you can’t just force it. It’s a major accomplishment just to get out of bed and brush your teeth or shower or pee. Like christ, you don’t even want to eat and it’s easy just to skip meals and sleep for 12 hours+
Apparently symptoms of Bipolar can also include being easily distracted and having trouble concentrating and a common behaviour is starting projects(usually in high periods) and never finishing them or taking on too many tasks only to get overwhelmed…I have this issue constantly and it ruins my life. Completely frustrating and it’s making me want to cry just thinking about it.
Also if you have bipolar disorder or a history of it you’re not allowed to donate your eggs because of the hiigh ass chance it’ll be passed on since it’s super hereditary.
is it your own skin though? As in you grew it, on your own body, from birth?
This skin was grown yes. On a human body. That is mine. I’m not a robot
Ok ok I’ll believe you… If you first tell me what this says:
I don’t need to prove myself to you how dare you, I love breathing oxygen
when ur otp is destroying you but ur friend just doesn’t ship it